Blue Lillies

I am transfixed
Upon the sparkling glass
That crunches beneath my feet
Where once was a hole
Now void of all meaning
Degenerating
All that i once knew
Pushing me to silence
Embraced by the loudness of my thoughts
The love i thought was there
Now shattered like the glass
Embeded beneath my finger nails
And  the souls of my feet
The color drips from my eyes
Embarasing me
Infront of the crowd
And they try to lock me away
They tell me it will be better
I will get better
But there is nothing wrong with me
My wounds are just deep
But i go with them
With their cold hands
And maybe it will be better
Than this
Sack of shit
I hang from my neck
Like a tie of blue lillies
In abundance
But the voices in my head
The memories
I should have forgotten
Like a tidal wave to the night
When birds take their flight
I am alone
Screaming at the blue lillies
That choke at me
Holding me hostage
Fearing the scars will never heal
The blue lillies laugh
For they can see through me
And my tiny bits of glass
And the doctors that try to fix me
But i am alright
In a haze full of tears
When the tiger leaps
To make its blow
I am the fallen
Amoungst blue lillies